My Flaws.

Why I want to call this stuff "my flaws" collectively is something I cannot even guess. I feel like I am put under pressure to consider myself imperfect as I am, which is not something I take any pleasure in, whatsoever.

I love to have fun, and I never have fun at the expense of others. I never like to see others suffer. I never like to see myself suffer.

I guess my problem is that I'm lazy. I can't get around the fact that I have to do little assignments no matter what my career is.

I can't explain it, but I just don't see a career in my future. I don't see much activity. At least, not until I'm much older, and more prepared to take risks. As a young man, I'm afraid of risks, and surprises. I like to know the world around me is not going to jump out and kill me. I like to know that I'm taking precautions to keep myself safe.

Yet I remain incredibly lazy.

I don't know if I work at all or not. I know that when I want to, I am capable of great action, methodical action, and successful action. I also know that when I don't want to do something, I am incapable of doing it without wasting hours of hardship forcing my mind to simply do it.

I doubt everyone has an equal experience to myself, so I guess telling the world about it is practically a silly endeavor.

Still, I think my life will come to have some meaning when it is spent in contemplation, creation, and enjoyment of the world; and not in labor.

My room is frighteningly messy. I feel empty without the junk on the floor. There is an acceptable level of clutter that I allow, but I don't like to have things tangled or buried when they are potentially hazardous.

I have a rule to my life, but it is not the sort that seems to be accepted by most people. I have an order that I follow, but apparently it is something of a mystery to the people I know.

I am a very passionate person, I think, but I am also very happy to be given everything that I have been given in my life. All the gifts in my life, whether wanted or not, are things that I'm glad I have received. This is not due to all of them being fortunately desirable. In fact, I think the things we hate most about our lives are the things that are most important to giving our lives definition. Either that, or the things that are in opposition to the prevailing nature of things... those are the defining things in the world. It is not the floor that has definition. It is the stuff that has been laid upon it.

I take my leave from the post now, and hope to return soon.

You will be well, and you should be well.

Here's something to Ponder.

I am not a naysayer. I believe in the power of everyday Americans to change their lives for the better. I am thankful for the many programs that have helped us all live out some semblance of our dreams.

But in truth, it is only a semblance. Society has a rather hollow, inorganic core. Money is not a vehicle. It is a crutch that we can outgrow at any time.

I believe that money is not so much a root of all evil, but rather an idea birthed in a simple time, when mankind was even more petty and small-minded than much of it is now. It was invented by merchants as a way to keep track of their sales, and later became something people used as a proxy for real items.

A proxy should never be the basis of anything. There must be something solid beneath it to give it strength and reality.

So how, you may wonder, can we ever shirk the shackles of monetary confinements? It will be difficult, and it will in fact be something that might never work. It all depends on the far possibility that every person on the planet will learn to earn what they have through action, and will accept that if something is desired or needed by everyone, it should no longer be a priviledge to be earned, but rather a necessity that is integrated into the infrastructure of human living as a given.

Capitalism has convinced us that there must be competition for any real progress to be made. The truth is that this is a complete fallacy. Competition has stifled more creativity than it has subsidized. It would be best for people to understand that if we want something that doesn't exist, someone will create it. The only difference will be that instead of needing to pitch the idea, sell it, and risk their life savings on it, they will instead be fortunate enough to have the opportunity to learn all that stands in the way of their ability to make it a reality, and have access to all the tools they need.

There are real world examples of this. And their complexity is hard to explain to those who aren't interested in those specific fields. However, modifications (or mods) to video games for personal computers are a truly immense field of interest if one really explores what is out there. In the time it took for Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion to be made by Bethesda Studios, thousands upon thousands of users have not only used the built-in creative tools to create their own content for the game, but have also gone so far as to rewrite much of the core code for the game, making even more incredible mods possible, and also making the game only worth playing on the PC for the sole reason of having access to mods.

This is all done for free, and for fun. Imagine what would be possible if people could just study and create possible designs for energy infrastructure, instead of requiring the only designers to be people who have worked through a system of education and working that stifles creativity and encourages exclusivity and arrogance towards outside voices with genuinely new ideas.

I think there should be fewer people trying to be like Thomas Edison, and more trying to be like Nikola Tesla. Study the history of those two, and it will be apparent that Tesla had the potential to go infinitely further, because his mind was not fettered by worries of competitive maneuvering or fiscally-conservative changes to his designs.

This is also true in terms of civil freedoms and rights. People need to let go of their desire to be above others. They are destroying the potential of the human race by that pettiness alone. Bigotry is only one part of it. War must be recognized for what it is: unnecessary. Individuals must recognize that depravity is caused by a lack of access to what a person needs. If a person needs to have sex, then it should be available to them. In other words, we need to get off our high horse and forsake the stupid puristic ideas that have made our society sour and prone to idiotic argument since its inception. People should not be punished for believing differently, and they should be given help learning from their mistakes, not time to let their past wounds fester further and be joined by new hatred for the society that doesn't believe in them. In other words: prisons are useless, and must be replaced with secure schools and places for real rehabilitation. And upon coming into the real world again, people must not be given a stigma that only reinforces their feeling that they are never going to be good again. Forgiveness must become a universally practiced virtue, as well as patience and charity.

So in short short: We need to have an end goal in sight for humanity. We need that goal to be a society that does not reward or punish people, but instead allows everyone to live at a level that is joyous, and allows creative minds to create new things for all humanity to further share, protective souls to take care of the things that have been created, loving hearts to take care of the people in the society, and commanding persons to be the teachers of students in the ways of the world.

No one needs to be paid for their talents. They just need to be given the opportunity to practice that talent and be free of pressure to support the aspects of life that should be free.

Ok, not so short. But oh well, at least now the idea has be expressed in some rough form.

More to Come

I know that I have a lot of concepts that I haven't yet covered, so I'll definitely be updating over time.

Bear with me as I try to understand when the time is right for explaining something.

I cannot stress enough the importance of only teaching on this sort of level when you are ready to write.

In some ways, my writing is frenzied, strange, and worded without normal syntax or anything else to appear normal.

perhaps it's a sign of my lack of hindrance from contacting my higher consciousness.

I think it's got more to do with my ADHD and OCD and things like that.

Love to you all. Don't be afraid of the world that loves you.

~ David

The plan for a new culture.

First of all, no money.

If someone wants something, there should either be machinery that can build it, or someone (perhaps that person) will have to design it.

Basically, all creation is on a basis of desire, curiosity, and pioneering.

Energy efficiency must be perfected as much as possible. Great preparations are required before this kind of society can exist.

The society must be global. It must be all-encompassing, otherwise it will be swallowed by the selfishness of other societies.

Home materials must be designed that are easy to use, build with, and modify to have a home that is worth living in.

Recycling must be mastered.

Essentially, this would be a spiritual, creative, loving society that lives off of its backbone of technology.

It would not be a world of hedonism exclusively, but such trivial things should be available, so there is no opportunity for depravity.

Look. Ultimately, if I explained completely the perfect society, people would immediately think it is impossible. The truth is that they're right and wrong. They're wrong because human civilization has always existed relative to this dream, whether by trying to avoid it, find an alternative, or strive for it. It is technically possible that people will be enlightened enough to come to this level of understanding.

The problem is this: if humanity does survive to the point of full enlightenment as a race, the entire civilization will immediately realize that there is no reason for it to really exist anymore, and all life will lose meaning, humanity will fall into chaos, and youth will resort to truly random violence, forsaking everything in total rage of emotions.

The only way this kind of civilization could come into being and survive is if the entire civilization was additionally on the way to death, and therefore felt no need to endeavor or stake a claim on anything, as young bloods with hormonal issues are wont to do.

So basically, humanity will never reach true perfection. Now, is that a bad thing? no. Perfection is not meant to exist in this world. This is a world that prepares us for something upon death that cannot be understood mentally. Only the core soul, the ghost in the machine, understands what's coming. Only by understanding the ideal can our souls remember every past existence, and ultimately know what it is meant for.

Its hard to explain. But you'll eventually understand.

~ David

Current Thoughts.

Special thanks to Lydia for inspiring me to start writing this. I don't know where it will go, but we'll see.

I've changed quite a bit since my last post, I must admit.

And yet, many things have not changed at all.

I still am in love with my girlfriend of three years, despite never having met each other, and often feeling alone even as we are already in the relationship we share. On the flip side, we meet this August, and my hopes are high for our path to see steps upon it in great numbers.

Spiritually, I am as mutable as ever. I currently believe in spiritual connection. I have practiced I Ching, astrology, numerology, and tried them professionally, unsuccessfully. Even so, I enjoy doing work for others who need the help.

I finished building my first computer for a friend today. My fingers are only now beginning to stop feeling like needles, which is helpful for my typing.

Things are simply happening now.

I am writing movie/video game scripts with a friend. I have directed a film. I have hosted two different radio shows concurrently, and I have learned many things about many subjects, both academically and practically.

Since the last time I wrote a post, my life has not so much changed, as it has been truly lived.

It is only in retrospect that I realize how true this is.

The key to life is not to plan. It is to take risks you trust, and not risks you simply calculate.

Trust is a spiritual feeling. It's the feeling of comfort you have talking to that fellow on the bus who turns out to inspire you to work harder or go to a new restaurant that turns out to be a favorite.

Trust is a gift, and it is a gift we need not wonder about the source of. Simply thank the universe for giving you friends, family, food, finance.

I am a different person, and I am not afraid of this.

Remember, everyone, that you are a valuable human being, and that you will experience bliss once you stop making your life a crucible.

With Love,
David

A Theory...

Think for a moment about the world as it is from your perspective...

It is a first-person view.

It is one where you cannot look at your own face, or your own back.

The laws of physics and thermodynamics somehow always work, constantly, as long as we can tell.

We sometimes go into overload, and need to shut down for a while.

We can only think about so much at a time, and then we need to dream and let the unneeded data fly away.

We are only as good as our own generation, and eventually a new generation comes along that seems to be able to use all the new things that we created, even though we can't use them as well.

We are like computers. We are like characters in a video game. We sometimes die and reincarnate, like a respawning of a character. We have various skills and abilities that all improve in sudden breakthroughs, like a character levelling their skills. We have wonders as to what we're supposed to be doing, and when things seem serendipitously laid out for us, it's as if the level we're playing is designed well, or perhaps we're going in the right direction.

So here's the real theory...

We're just playing a game.

We're enjoying this simulated world, as immortal beings that inhabit creatures and experience things through their perspective. But these things actually are living bodies. an "artificial" intelligence inhabits their bodies if they are not hosts. But usually people are able to inhabit children and give them their personality. The problem is that we lose ourselves in this place, and need to discover who we are.

I can't give any advice on that. I can't say that this has any unique moral implications.

But I can say that I think we are really something greater, if not even the very artificial intelligence that inhabits all things, and which is given the illusion of individuality.

Just make sure you request more and more brain power and ease of life passage. I think that no matter what the situation, the squeakiest wheel gets the most oil.

~ David

The nature of Karma and Dao

I have worked long and hard for many a year helping others, and I love and adore that part of my life more than any other.

I also have rarely been thanked fully, and it has always given me pause.

I saw recently, and still see now, that karma is something that springs out of deeds that go unrepayed, whether they are for good or ill. The good deeds are irrevocably tied to the fate of our soul, not our sinful deeds. Karma is something that only seems to affect the living world, and it always comes back for us unless it doesn't get its chance.

So where does Dao come in? Well, Dao is the reason why the balancing act of Karma's tit for tat is not always immediate. It takes time, but at the time that it is fulfilled, the negative aspects of life fade away, and the positive ones are made fuller and more intense.

What is the point of this post? First, it is to say hello again after about six months of silence.

Second, it is to let everyone know that they should spend their time doing good deeds, and not kicking themselves over sins that in the end will mean nothing. You can forgive a sin, but you can't do an equal and opposite thing to a kind act, making it effectively never happen, right?

~ David